{quest for health} my own...

**gulp**
So here goes nothing.
The blog post I knew was coming but, I didn't really know how what I wanted to share without sharing too much.
It's easy to pour your heart out when you aren't face to face with your audience.
I'm not standing in front of you red faced sucking in my gut to hide my muffin top.
{like your surprised...I am after all a mother to four}
This post would probably be a whole lot different if I was in front of you.
Scratch that.
This post wouldn't exist.
Change is hard. Actually, I detest change.
I would rather stay where I am then face the unknown.
Not sure if that's a female trait but it's true to my nature.
Maybe I'm scared of what's around the other corner.
Maybe I am worried I will fail but how am I ever going to know if I don't try?
The biggest challenge I face is that I am "comfortable" with the face grinning back at me.
she's lying.
I'm tired of hiding behind baggy sweatshirts and wearing clothing that either or too big {my true religion jeans for one} or they are old {circa 2004} that the knees are blown out of them.
*sigh*
I'm want my {pre-baby}body back!
I'm tired of hiding, the self sabotage {"you don't have enough time... }
and I'm tired of not putting myself on the radar.
Why do I feel guilty for wanting to spend 30 minutes on myself?!
I want to spend as much time with my children as I can.
I am slowly learning that when I take care of myself I am a much better mother.
I need to get comfortable with being uncomfortable.
So here comes the "quest" part.
Things are a changing... small baby steps at a time.
I started with adding this:

The Yoga Meltdown DVD contains two 30 minute yoga workouts. In typical Jillian fashion each work out consists of 3 circuit sessions that are divided by a couple of sun salutations. {just when my energy starts to drain she changes circuits which is awesome}

This is NOT your typical yoga DVD. Jillian is tough! Throughout the work out she really focuses on holding ‘power poses’ for 15 – 30 seconds at a time {which is REALLY HARD!} and putting her own twist on common poses. She also loves a good chaturanga push up! {I sure hope that these get easier to do because those are harder than I expected}

As you read this I have just finished my workout {4th day in a row!!} and am now revamping how I feed my family.
Look for that too follow...

Oh! And before I forget.
I did take an "before" photo which I will post in a months time next to my "after" photo.
Shall be interesting to see....